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Sunday, July 30, 2006

Scared... yes.. but not from the Israeilis

As I watch the war playing out in Lebanon.... the horrors that I see on the news , I know that no one but the ones experiencing them can really know what they are like.

The anger that I feel at everything that is happening.. the frustration that WE ARE DOING NOTHING

I admit I am very scared... yes I am scared for Lebanon and the Muslims everywhere... but I know they have been wronged so badly.. And God is witness to all... and I know GOd will help them and defeat their enemy ISA. They are in God's hands... and if God's mercy is with them, they will prevail. Not the US phrase as they say it all the time "we will prevail" nonsense... but they will really prevail ultimately because right is on their side.... and who ever God is with... it does not matter who is against them.

And getting more and more frustrated with us collectively as muslims all over the world, just watching.. and sending only the aid that would not hurt us... medicine and food... but definitely not enough. We indeed have a much bigger duty to the Lebanese people.

Now I am getting scared... I am scared of God's wrath that I pray we never experience... due to our lack of solidarity and our failure to go to their assistance. God's wrath is the thing that I fear indeed, not Israel or America or even death. We are all going to die some day.. it is how we do it and the deeds we do before then that really count.

We need to do what is right.. to be right with God.

A few days ago I read a post by Ahmad (Ahmad's cold desert) where he was slashing out at the arab governments... I wanted to say something...I am sorry maybe...or something like that. I was too ashamed to write anything. what would I say...." no really... our hearts are really with you.. go fight or die while we watch, but we will pray?" that is not enough.. till we make a real difference, we have no right to raise our heads high in the face of any lebanese that tells us "where have you been?"

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Keep praying

الذين قال لهم الناس إن الناس قد جمعوا لكم فاخشوهم"
، فزادهم ايماناً وقالوا حسبنا الله ونعم الوكيل

"فانقلبوا بنعمة من الله وفضل لم يمسسهم سوء واتبعوا رضوان الله والله ذو فضل عظيم

" Those (i.e. believers) unto whom the people (hypocrites)said, " Verily, the people (pagans) have gathered against you (a great army), therefore fear them." But it (only) increased them in Faith, and they said: " Allah (Alone) is Sufficient for us, and He is the Best Disposer of affairs ( for us), So they returned with Grace and Bounty from Allah. No harm touched them; and they followed the good Pleasure of Allah. And Allah is the Owner of Great Bounty"

" Quran : AL- Imran , 173-174"

Saturday, July 15, 2006

The World Today

A Bully.... Backed by a bigger bully

Wa Allahu Akbar min kol kabeer

Monday, July 03, 2006

Silver Lining

Mrs. A just visited us yesterday, one of God's blessings in our life ISA. She is closer to 50 I think, but we all (Roora, mama and I) enjoy her company a lot. We were talking yesterday about how things are going down in Iraq and Palestine, and how things are in general in the Muslim community. Things indeed have been going from bad to worse lately, and at a very alarming rate too! I watch the news and feel so frustrated and sad…. So beaten down. Frustrated that there is nothing I can do (or is there?), and sad for all that is happening to fellow Muslims everywhere. Especially in Palestine…

Mrs. A and mom had the joint vision that this is all because of our own deeds… that the Muslim community now is not at all as it used to be as it should be… we did indeed stray from the correct path in many ways…governments and people alike. I agree… this may be in fact true… but I just share a different future view maybe…. That is where we differed.

Mom and Mrs. A were all like "mafeesh faydah feena…" , look how we act…. Of course this has to happen to us. Etc etc.. that kind of talk.

I was desperately trying to find the silver lining in the cloud. Trying to see that this may seem so bad… but is just what we need to actually wake up… maybe from the depths of this crisis would emerge good muslims. Maybe without it we would never change… as with everything that happens to us in life… what does not kill us makes us stronger.

Rebuttal from my mom and Mrs. A: Nothing changes… we are still the same… look around you… people are hung up on the latest video clips for foolana or 3ellana, and worried about their stomachs too much to try to want to change anything.

I kept on pushing the point that change takes time… this is sunnat Allah fee alard.. things take time. God created the world in six days, while He could have done it in an instant. To teach us I think, that things take time… we have to be patient and maintain the faith even when things are bleakest and the night is darkest.

Mrs. A told me maybe they are talking like they are, because they are older and have already been through a lot in life, and have seen that nothing changes. We still have the hope because we are younger and think in a more hopeful manner.

The thing is… I do not want to ever give up hope… in anything for that matter. I am always there looking for the silver lining as if it is right around the corner. (maybe it is!). The optimist I always am… or more accurately the optimist I always try to be. In all aspects of my personal life as well as in the bigger picture.

Just FYI, it does not come easy. It takes a lot of conscious effort (and the help of God makes it so much more doable) to not let despair over come you when things are bleak. Keeping up the faith and hope that things will be better one day ISA, and soon ISA and hopefully and praying to God… please pray with me.

If I do not keep on reviving my hope that things will get better and soon, despair will soon eat me up… and will definitely toss me into depression… and I really do not like being depressed. (who would anyway?). So my faith in God keeps me ISA, May God preserve it… my faith that God would always help and aid those who have faith and hope in His mercy. Provided of course that we all try to do what we can. "In Tansoro Allah Yansorkom we yothabbet Akdamakom". (Sooret Mohammed).

Of course seeing the full half of the cup has indeed put me in trouble before… always expecting the best. Yes I can see reality in the present (besara7a not always) but I kind of always hope that it can change to the better. Thus I do not always see the bad in a lot of people, or don't expect to be stung by them… and it is a dangerous thing today… I try to be more cautious… but what can I do? this is what I am. And I really do not think I want to change it. It makes life better having hope… we bakool rabbena yostor dayman ISA. :)